Who the heck knew

Remember when things were so easy? Gosh it seems as though once again i never take advantage of the easiness when it is near. Every new section in life where we take on new responsiblilites, from no children to one and a job, to two with a husband and no job added to the mix, to now three (one in school) and still no job and thankfully still a husband. And at each section in my life i can remember thinking. Gosh why is this so hard? when does it get easy? only to find out that i had it pretty good each time. I look back to my days without any kids or a hubby and think, what was so hard about that? i mean really? and boy was i skinny!!!!! then I remember when i had Boston as a single mother , and a newly 21 year old and thinking What the heck am i doing, and did i make the right decision and please let it get better and easier. Now i think (only on some days when it is tough) why cant the boys grow up just a little?!? cant they ever stop fighting? And when can i have my girl? what will the future hold?I may still be asking like Heavenly Father is a crystal ball but I definitely am much better at counting my blessings. I do it ever time i lay down and close my eyes. I have been blessed with a wonderful husband. Friends that support me in our beliefs (esp when i want those jelly shots) and three great boys who love to drive me nuts.... a family who has always supported me even when i was wrong and a heavenly father who was loved me through out and it has been with the help of The church of Jesus Christ of Latter day Saints that i have such a strong testimony. And funny enough i didnt realize it till right this second. I have never gotten up and spoken and today being fast and testimony makes this posting seem ironic. I had no intention of testifiying but when you count your blessings and name them one by one (love that song) its very easy to see that Heavenly Father has been very clear and present in my life and without the church i knew that he exisited but have never felt him like this..... there is a point to going to church on sundays....crazy i know. who knew that it would be a blessing when every sunday it is such a fight (its too cold, i am too sleepy, the boys are sick, etc) to even get there......